We are blessed. Truly, honestly, perfectly blessed by God's grace. I have felt God's love through and through today. Six months ago today I held my Thao for the last time. Even now, it's hard to write, read, say. It's hard to believe. I still think of things to show him when he gets home, then I remember. He is home. He is in a place so perfect, so beautiful, so completely amazing....I can just picture him saying "Those things don't bother me anymore, mama." He will never have to go to the doctor, or get a skinned knee, or feel embarrassed or feel pain....ever. again. forever. He is laughing and playing. He knows joy, pure joy. Even though it's so easy for us to focus on the pain here, I am through God's grace able to see past this part, this phase. I guess our life here on earth is just a bunch of phases. Our phase of parenting Thao is over, but I will always be Thao's mom. Yes, we've all asked that question "why". But, it's not mine to question, just as it's not mine to control. God is good and he sees us through each moment, and that is what I need. I've seen God's love through all your words of encouragement today. I cannot begin to tell you how wonderful it is to be surrounded by people that remember, pray and love us when we need it most. Thank you.
With that said, we are doing what we know to do. We have our moments, we cry, we rely on Christ, and we love the time we have with Ava and Liam. We are in a phase of being a family of four, watching our baby turn into a toddler, listening to Ava reminisce of times with Thao, learning what to do now. We've had to pick up the slack a little, Thao was such a wonderful helper. He fed the dog, sharpened the pencils, packed the diaper bag, helped us bake and clean. He reminded us to buy birthday hats and helped pick out presents.
We are entering a new phase in our life as well, adoption. Adoption has always been on our hearts, in our dreams for "someday". We have prayed that God would open or close doors, and he's done that for us. We are still in the beginning phases of our homestudy, but we are excited! We are praying for God's leading and direction for us, our caseworker and birth parents. We are praying for our baby that we have yet to meet. Please pray with us!
Love you all.
With that said, we are doing what we know to do. We have our moments, we cry, we rely on Christ, and we love the time we have with Ava and Liam. We are in a phase of being a family of four, watching our baby turn into a toddler, listening to Ava reminisce of times with Thao, learning what to do now. We've had to pick up the slack a little, Thao was such a wonderful helper. He fed the dog, sharpened the pencils, packed the diaper bag, helped us bake and clean. He reminded us to buy birthday hats and helped pick out presents.
We are entering a new phase in our life as well, adoption. Adoption has always been on our hearts, in our dreams for "someday". We have prayed that God would open or close doors, and he's done that for us. We are still in the beginning phases of our homestudy, but we are excited! We are praying for God's leading and direction for us, our caseworker and birth parents. We are praying for our baby that we have yet to meet. Please pray with us!
Love you all.