Confession

Okay, I have a confession to make. Today in rounds, I barely paid any attention. I couldn't. I just couldn't stop looking at the x-ray and thanking God for air in Thao's lungs!!!! As they were discussing all the ins and outs (literally, I mean they were talking about lines coming in and out of his little body), my mind wandered to a day not very long ago. I came into the hospital one morning to find him reaching his little hand out of the blanket so he could show me his remote control helicopter. Jeff had to persuade him to do it (he doesn't like to do anything when he's cold), and he gave that "if I humor them, maybe they'll leave me alone look". Maybe, just maybe those days aren't too far away! They are trying to wean him off the ecmo slowly so that he's solely on the vent. Then my mind wandered again.....I wonder if I can convince him to get a gray or tiger striped kitten instead of a white one?

Also, just to be clear about my last post.....I am far from perfect, but I want to make sure I don't have any regrets. I want to be sure that I don't put the things that matter off until tomorrow because tomorrow may not come. I wanted to encourage you to do the same, whatever that may look like. For me, God started a work in my heart when Thao was just a baby to treasure each moment and put off the things that didn't matter as much. Some days are more of a struggle than others, but that's when I remember I'm not alone. I can't do anything alone. So, I make myself some coffee and pray for God's perfect patience and peace for my day. :)