Surely Goodness and Love

I spent 2 days with women who were ready to seek Christ. To pour out themselves and fill up the emptiness with Jesus. I was thankful for this opportunity. I was reassured of things God wants me to do. I was encouraged.

I get home and real life hits. It hits hard.

And I was up all night with my poor sick 3.5 year old.

Being a mom that has had a sick kid, a really sick kid, a kid who's body failed him....

Sickness kinda gets scary sometimes.

Sometimes my mind goes places like kidney failure and dialysis.

Sometimes bumps on the head take me to brain surgery and hospital rooms.

Sometimes fevers make me desperate and weary.

Last night as I held my weak child. I prayed for rest, for sleep. Instead I watched him sleep and jumped everytime he moved.

In the darkness came my rest. Pressed upon my heart was Psalm 23.

The Lord is my Shepherd, I shall not be in want.

He makes me lie down in green pastures,

he leads me beside quiet waters, 

he restores my soul.

He guides me in paths of righteousness for his name's sake.

Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, 

I will fear no evil, 

for you are with me; 

your rod and your staff, they comfort me. 

You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies. 

You anoint my head with oil;

my cup overflows.

Surely goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life

and I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever.  

Isn 't it good? Isn't it beautiful?

We are not alone. Even in those dark places. And when we are with Christ, when we fall into his arms, even in the dark places, his goodness and love follow me. 

And when it's over...

I will dwell in the house of the Lord. Forever.